One night I’m was riding past the house were my daughter lived and noticed that there were alot of people there . It was around 12 am. I called when i got to a buddies house, I called and ask what the hell was going on and wheres my baby, why is there so many people up there so late and she hung up on me. So i called back with no answer. then she finally answered and we talked for about an hour. Then after calling her by my new girlfriends name by accident, she hung up on me. I tried Back a couple of times and gave up.My buddy Tommy told me he would be a witness for me if anything happened,but i never even got the chance to call him from jail. The next morning I got a call from the police, witch she had been on the phone with the police officer lying like a rug. I told them the truth about what happened and all they said was I was being charge with harassment by communication . I was on probation at the time for some misdemeanor things. My probation officer herd about the incident and put me in jail. So when I finally get to court . I plead no contest, bad decision at the time because I was going to do time anyway for the violation. She had no proof or phone records, of coarse to prove her case. Then the judge told me if i ever was to go around her again i was doing serious jail time .There was never any mention about use having a child together. I had no one on my side while she had her dad and sister sitting and grinning when i walked into the court room. I felt so worthless and depressed when i finally got out I continued feeding my depression, self medicating If you will.I tried calling anybody and everywhere, but no one could give me any answers or help. This was about the time I tried committing suicide. I swallowed about 30 trazadone sleeping pills followed by a fifth of vodka. Well the x was not worried she got married 2 years after we broke up and they came into some money some how and ask the courts for an adoption. They got it because they said I signed my rights away. I DID NOT!!!!! I was never notified, never mailed any thing. They cannot say either they knew not my whereabouts because adult probation found me and always I had current addresses for them, from 1989 to 2002. She also knew this. because her sister and mother would always call him, my probation officer, and try getting me thrown in jail. Threw all this I am trying to battle depression, anxiety,alcoholism,the loss of my daughter. I was a mess. No one would help me not even my parents.About 2 years later When I was twenty nine years old my parental rights were taken from me with out my knowledge. by a vengeful X pulling some shifty crap. I have tried everything in my power to seek help looking every were asking everybody, but with out thousands of dollars for a lawyer no one will help me. If I were a women this would not be an issue. I’m sure I would find help right away. I have told my story to just about everybody I know and they all agree I got screwed. Can someone out there give me some advice or some kind of resource or somebody i can contact for help. Please help if you can but this is a very serious issue I will never give up on.Over the next 11 yrs I just about gave up.The only thing that kept me from laying across the railroad tracks was the determination to right this wrong.
Presently I have taken steps to Improve my live and change it for the better. I don’t drink, smoke, do drugs, I have recently been diagnosed with P.T.S.D also a social anxiety. I see a therapist once a week and follow my doctors treatment regiment to the letter. I know in my heart i will see her one day again and hold my baby girl