My Girlfriend of (2) years is pregnant. I do not love her. We have lived together for 1 1/2. She has a very troubled life. Her father does heroin and never really sees her but when he does he is the most judgmental person that you will ever meet. Her mother is a horrible woman. She does not take care of her children. She does not cook nor cleans.My girls father and mother are divorced. My girlfriendssiblings are always with my 16 yr. brother at my dads house. They would rather be there than at their moms. She is really neglectful. She is the type of woman that would rather please her boyfriend and make him happy than her children. She has 5 children living with her.
It all started when i met my girl. I was 17 turning 18 in like 2 months and she was 17 about to turn 18 in 6 months. We started hanging out. She told me about her life. She said she had been sent to bootcamp because she skipped school alot. Shes a Freshman in High school at 17.
By the time i turn 18 I asked her out. Everything was perfect. I would be graduating in a week. The girl i really liked was my girlfriend.
I had a summer job at Dell.

her Ex boyfriend at this time had called her. She yelled at him to stop calling her and hanged up.
My little brother heard her yell and asked her why.
He guy called again. My brother answered. The guy yelled at my brother and threatened to beat him up if he did not give her the phone.
My brother hanged up. Later on that day the guys sister came to my girls house and beat her up. I got mad and went to his house. i got arrested. Thats what you call young and stupid.
I was placed on Probation for a year.
About 4 months after that her mother decided to kick her and her older sister out of the house. Her older sister is always depressed . She cuts herself.
I have had to stop her many times from hurting herself. Her father is terrible to her. He has nothing nice to say to her.
She is a really good person.
They found an apartment. They both got jobs and paid rent for like 2 months before they were laided off. Company went down hill.
They could not pay any bills so i offered to help them out for this month while they looked for jobs.
i paid for 2 months. They lost the apartment. My mom offered her and me to move in with her. I did not want to> my mother did not want her living there unless i was there also> she had no where else to go >
so i did it>
i worked to help pay the bills. she did not work. she didnt even look for a job.she doesnt clean, she doesnt cook.
it has been like this for almost a year. i work full time. at 5 in the morning till 2 pm. then go to community college till 6:30.
She is now pregnant. I dont have the same puppy love feel for her i used to have. that is long gone. I do not want to be with her anymore. But the thought of being a father and not having my son live with his mother and father is very sad. i really want to have custody of this child. I know the court will not give me custody of a newborn. Just like before if i decide not to be with her. She will have nowhere to go.
I am miserable. She is not the person she portrade her self to be. Her secrets have been revealed recently.
i feel like my youth is leaving me quickly taking care of a girl that does not take care of her self.
i have been admitted to go to UT of austin.
I Have a great love for this unborn child of mine.
i need to do something Now to Secure my childs future. I know this. I grow up very poor on the northside of austin.
My father had done the best he can without an education. he was a refuge from el salvador. Bad Civil war. thousands killed.
He works 12 hour days.
only getting sunday off.
His youth slipped away from him working.
He did not have the same opportunities presented to me.
i know it takes two to tango. I know i should have used better protection.
I WILL take care of MY child with the same love my father did me.
Am i a bad person for not wanting to be with my girl anymore.
We are not the same people anymore. We are not affectionate to each other anymore.
She has nowhere wlse to go .
I can feel my youth slipping away from me ?
i am 20 now.
She does not work . Will not get her GED.
Can anybody give me advise?

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