My husband and I have been married for six years. He is an alcoholic. He was in AA and was doing well when we met and married. He has fallen off the wagon many times over the past six years. We lived in another state and he was drinking all the time. So drunk he couldn’t stand or talk. He promised me that if I would move back “home” with him that he’d show me that he would stop for good. He even said he’d go to AA here. But we have been here for a month and a half now and he is drunk really bad tonight. He’s been in trouble in this state before. He spent six mos in jail long before we met for drunk driving habitual. I just talked to him because he is three hours late coming home from work. He is blind drunk. I am not a drinker so I don’t understand. I am sick with a very serious disease if I get stressed. I am trying not to let this stress me really bad tonight but he may or may not come home. He has expired plates on his car and he is drunk. If he goes to jail, I will not stay married to him but in the same sense, I can’t pay my rent and I’m unable to work. I’ve applied for social security but haven’t heard anything yet. I don’t know what to do. Should I just go ahead and wait up for him and just not say anything to him until tomorrow? Should I call the police so that when he does get here, he can’t stay? I just don’t know anymore. He broke that promise after he cried and cried and begged me to come up here with him. He said it was going to be different because he was going to be happy. I am in my 40s and I’m not a kid. But I’ve never had to deal with this before in my life until I met him. Do you have any advice? Please? I am sick and afraid. I don’t know if I can make it on my own. He just came in and fell on the floor because he can’t stand up. He is not acting drunk as much as he is acting drugged. He has done many types of drugs according to him before and he has also done some very bad things to me emotionally in the past when my father lay in the hospital dying on life support..my husband went out and done a bunch of coke and didn’t go home for two days. He has stolen and taken my pain medication where I had to just take the pain because of it. He said he loves me but I have my doubts now. Thank you for reading and please don’t say anything too harsh to me because I don’t think I can take it anymore. I just can’t and I don’t understand why I am still alive. But I do want to be. I love my children but I only have one left that is under 18 now.

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