I’ve been binging and purging now for a little over a year. I am 16. A couple months ago I was hospitalized for it but still did not get better. There I was diagnosed with Bulimia Nervosa, but still I did not get the better with weekly therapy and even if I did, I couldn’t stop.
When I came home…I still binged but didn’t purge for fear of being put back in inpatient. Now that I’ve gained weight from that, I now binge every single night and purge afterwards.

The thing is, sometimes I can’t purge if I do it too many times. When I used to purge up to 15 times a day, after a while my gag reflex just wouldn’t work and nothing would come up. So I was wondering what else I could do? Would drinking soap water do it?

I know this is bad…but I really can’t afford to gain any more weight. I am not happy. And my dad knows, who I am living with, but he doesn’t care and denies it so he won’t get in trouble for allowing it. And I can’t tell any anyone because I don’t want to get in trouble.

So please…what should I do??
And I do NOT want to go back inpatient or to any hospital please!

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