my mom just died 2dys ago. my stepfather killed her. iam glad he gone to jail cuz he abuse and raped me. i currently live with my real father, and his wife, and there 3 children. i have not seen my father or talk to my father since my mom and him split up when i waz 3yrs old. i start doing drugs when i was 12 yrs old, i was in hostipal for over use of cocaine i was 15. i did this to get rid of the emotional and physical pain i was feeling when my stepdad abuse and rape me. i have been drug free for the past 2yrs. iam now 17yrs old. i was so anger when i found out my mom was dead and right before mother’s day. my daddy came an got me. i do not get along with his kids. i have start cuting myself and smoke weed again to get rid pain. my daddy and his wife are trying to be loving to me. why would they try to be loving to me? nobody love me before. so why would they care?, they do not know anything about me. please help me?

A father passing by his son’s bedroom was astonished to see that his bed was nicely made and everything was picked up.

Then he saw an envelope, propped up prominently on the pillow that was addressed to “Dad.” With the worst premonition he opened the envelope with trembling hands and read the letter.

Dear Dad:

It is with great regret and sorrow that I’m writing you. I had to elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you. I have been finding real passion with Stacy and she is so nice. But I knew you would not approve of her because of all her piercings, tattoos, tight motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it’s not only the passion…Dad she’s pregnant. Stacy said that we will be very happy. She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children.

Stacy has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn’t really hurt anyone.We’ll be growing it for ourselves and trading it with the other people that live nearby for cocaine and ecstasy. In the meantime we will pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Stacy can get better. She deserves it. Don’t worry Dad. I’m 15 and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I’m sure that we will be back to visit so that you can get to know your grandchildren.

Love,
Your Son John

P.S. Dad, none of the above is true. I’m over at Tommy’s house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than the report card that’s in my center desk drawer.

I love you.
Call me when it’s safe to come home.

Long story. My daughter’s father and I had never been together outside of my pregnancy. I had her full time until she was 10. while I was going through a nasty divorce from ex husband (after her father and her brother’s dad) – her dad whom I thought was a friend offered to take her more full time while I was going through the custody battle.

So she stayed with him. And she started to avoid me. Last time she came over for her visit, she ran away after I allowed her only an hour online. When I was taking a shower she ran off at 11:30 at night. I was frantic and calling the police, calling friends, calling her dad. Finally got in touch with her dad at 12:45. And he said he picked her up from a store two blocks away and figured that he shouldn’t have to call me. She refused to talk to me. He told me I was too strict (I caught her having cybercex online a few months ago and now restrict her usage).

Now. He refused to punish her for running off and said she was just being a typical teenager. Well. He left HER two nights later – stole his roommate’s car (my friend).

She called her aunt to pick her up at 2 in the morning when she went to go to his room and found he was gone.

My friend (his roommate) called me two days later and told me her car was found downtown in Crack Alley. Dad was arrested for theft of the vehicle, and in posession and under the influence of Crack Cocaine.

I recently found out that he’s a regular user. Well, he’s been allowing daughter to have friends sleep over (including boys), AND according to my friend and some of his family, been sneaking into her room at 4am in the morning in his underwear to sleep with her.

Police were phoned. I went to court and couldn’t get any custody going because I don’t know where he is. I went to the friends house to collect all of her belongings. I had her checked out at the Childrens Hospital, she denies any kind of sexual encounters, but outright refused a physical.

I came across her journal, and knew she was having SERIOUS issues (shes not even 13 yet) since being with her father. So I read it… I was shocked to find out she’s been having sex with her cousin and best friend (male and female respectively) and is worried she is pregnant. I also noticed a couple of weeks ago one of my packages of birth control pills had gone missing (i keep it in my bedside table)

When I had spoken to her dad a month back I told him I had worries she was being sexually active (he also admitted to catching her having cyber sex and figured there was nothing wrong with it) he told me it was all in my head and to stop being so strict. I kept insisting he has a talk with her.

Anyways I found out dad is and has been a crack addict for over 10 years (I was with him last 13 years ago) AND is HIV positive.

He phoned me after he ran off and apologised and expected to take her right away. I laughed at him and said he needs to get help for himself and to not worry about our daughter. I am taking her to counselling etc. He told me that she doesn’t want to be with me because I’m too strict (no boys in her room, limited time online, and following general rules like picking up after self, keeping room tidy etc). Well she has great relationship with her aunt, who is working with me on enforcing simple rules and chores. SHe’s the only one my daughter will run to – and she isn’t going to get away from it any longer.

When I told him I read her journal he FREAKED. I told him what I found, and he said that i had no right knowing that (including my daughter saying “if I’m pregnant, I’ll get rid of it without telling my mom”). She also talked about taking “pills” and “rainbow Parties” and drinking.

If I hadnt read her journal, I wouldn’t have known the serious trouble that she is in.

I feel kind of guilty that I read her journal, but I never would have known the problems she was having as she refused to talk to me. Am I truly wrong for reading it? I had a few people tell me that I can actually be charged for child abuse for reading her journal.

Anyways, advise I’m looking for really – are there special blocks I an get for free that I can put on my computer to stop her from checking out porn and other innapropriate sites (she figured out my password and snuck on last night, and it was all porn sites she was looking up) that is FREE?

And if you were in my shoes, what would you do? Am I wrong for refusing her father to see her? I told him he has to be out of rehab for a full year, attending AD meetings regularly and living in a stable home for a full year. BUT he also cannot spend nights with her even at that point until a psychiatric assessment is done.

Long story. My daughter’s father and I had never been together outside of my pregnancy. I had her full time until she was 10. while I was going through a nasty divorce from ex husband (after her father and her brother’s dad) – her dad whom I thought was a friend offered to take her more full time while I was going through the custody battle.

So she stayed with him. And she started to avoid me. Last time she came over for her visit, she ran away after I allowed her only an hour online. When I was taking a shower she ran off at 11:30 at night. I was frantic and calling the police, calling friends, calling her dad. Finally got in touch with her dad at 12:45. And he said he picked her up from a store two blocks away and figured that he shouldn’t have to call me. She refused to talk to me. He told me I was too strict (I caught her having cybercex online a few months ago and now restrict her usage).

Now. He refused to punish her for running off and said she was just being a typical teenager. Well. He left HER two nights later – stole his roommate’s car (my friend).

She called her aunt to pick her up at 2 in the morning when she went to go to his room and found he was gone.

My friend (his roommate) called me two days later and told me her car was found downtown in Crack Alley. Dad was arrested for theft of the vehicle, and in posession and under the influence of Crack Cocaine.

I recently found out that he’s a regular user. Well, he’s been allowing daughter to have friends sleep over (including boys), AND according to my friend and some of his family, been sneaking into her room at 4am in the morning in his underwear to sleep with her.

Police were phoned. I went to court and couldn’t get any custody going because I don’t know where he is. I went to the friends house to collect all of her belongings. I had her checked out at the Childrens Hospital, she denies any kind of sexual encounters, but outright refused a physical.

I came across her journal, and knew she was having SERIOUS issues (shes not even 13 yet) since being with her father. So I read it… I was shocked to find out she’s been having sex with her cousin and best friend (male and female respectively) and is worried she is pregnant. I also noticed a couple of weeks ago one of my packages of birth control pills had gone missing (i keep it in my bedside table)

When I had spoken to her dad a month back I told him I had worries she was being sexually active (he also admitted to catching her having cyber sex and figured there was nothing wrong with it) he told me it was all in my head and to stop being so strict. I kept insisting he has a talk with her.

Anyways I found out dad is and has been a crack addict for over 10 years (I was with him last 13 years ago) AND is HIV positive.

He phoned me after he ran off and apologised and expected to take her right away. I laughed at him and said he needs to get help for himself and to not worry about our daughter. I am taking her to counselling etc. He told me that she doesn’t want to be with me because I’m too strict (no boys in her room, limited time online, and following general rules like picking up after self, keeping room tidy etc). Well she has great relationship with her aunt, who is working with me on enforcing simple rules and chores. SHe’s the only one my daughter will run to – and she isn’t going to get away from it any longer.

When I told him I read her journal he FREAKED. I told him what I found, and he said that i had no right knowing that (including my daughter saying “if I’m pregnant, I’ll get rid of it without telling my mom”). She also talked about taking “pills” and “rainbow Parties” and drinking.

If I hadnt read her journal, I wouldn’t have known the serious trouble that she is in.

I feel kind of guilty that I read her journal, but I never would have known the problems she was having as she refused to talk to me. Am I truly wrong for reading it? I had a few people tell me that I can actually be charged for child abuse for reading her journal.

Anyways, advise I’m looking for really – are there special blocks I an get for free that I can put on my computer to stop her from checking out porn and other innapropriate sites (she figured out my password and snuck on last night, and it was all porn sites she was looking up) that is FREE?

And if you were in my shoes, what would you do? Am I wrong for refusing her father to see her? I told him he has to be out of rehab for a full year, attending AD meetings regularly and living in a stable home for a full year. BUT he also cannot spend nights with her even at that point until a psychiatric assessment is done.

Long story. My daughter’s father and I had never been together outside of my pregnancy. I had her full time until she was 10. while I was going through a nasty divorce from ex husband (after her father and her brother’s dad) – her dad whom I thought was a friend offered to take her more full time while I was going through the custody battle.

So she stayed with him. And she started to avoid me. Last time she came over for her visit, she ran away after I allowed her only an hour online. When I was taking a shower she ran off at 11:30 at night. I was frantic and calling the police, calling friends, calling her dad. Finally got in touch with her dad at 12:45. And he said he picked her up from a store two blocks away and figured that he shouldn’t have to call me. She refused to talk to me. He told me I was too strict (I caught her having cybercex online a few months ago and now restrict her usage).

Now. He refused to punish her for running off and said she was just being a typical teenager. Well. He left HER two nights later – stole his roommate’s car (my friend).

She called her aunt to pick her up at 2 in the morning when she went to go to his room and found he was gone.

My friend (his roommate) called me two days later and told me her car was found downtown in Crack Alley. Dad was arrested for theft of the vehicle, and in posession and under the influence of Crack Cocaine.

I recently found out that he’s a regular user. Well, he’s been allowing daughter to have friends sleep over (including boys), AND according to my friend and some of his family, been sneaking into her room at 4am in the morning in his underwear to sleep with her.

Police were phoned. I went to court and couldn’t get any custody going because I don’t know where he is. I went to the friends house to collect all of her belongings. I had her checked out at the Childrens Hospital, she denies any kind of sexual encounters, but outright refused a physical.

I came across her journal, and knew she was having SERIOUS issues (shes not even 13 yet) since being with her father. So I read it… I was shocked to find out she’s been having sex with her cousin and best friend (male and female respectively) and is worried she is pregnant. I also noticed a couple of weeks ago one of my packages of birth control pills had gone missing (i keep it in my bedside table)

When I had spoken to her dad a month back I told him I had worries she was being sexually active (he also admitted to catching her having cyber sex and figured there was nothing wrong with it) he told me it was all in my head and to stop being so strict. I kept insisting he has a talk with her.

Anyways I found out dad is and has been a crack addict for over 10 years (I was with him last 13 years ago) AND is HIV positive.

He phoned me after he ran off and apologised and expected to take her right away. I laughed at him and said he needs to get help for himself and to not worry about our daughter. I am taking her to counselling etc. He told me that she doesn’t want to be with me because I’m too strict (no boys in her room, limited time online, and following general rules like picking up after self, keeping room tidy etc). Well she has great relationship with her aunt, who is working with me on enforcing simple rules and chores. SHe’s the only one my daughter will run to – and she isn’t going to get away from it any longer.

When I told him I read her journal he FREAKED. I told him what I found, and he said that i had no right knowing that (including my daughter saying “if I’m pregnant, I’ll get rid of it without telling my mom”). She also talked about taking “pills” and “rainbow Parties” and drinking.

If I hadnt read her journal, I wouldn’t have known the serious trouble that she is in.

I feel kind of guilty that I read her journal, but I never would have known the problems she was having as she refused to talk to me. Am I truly wrong for reading it? I had a few people tell me that I can actually be charged for child abuse for reading her journal.

Anyways, advise I’m looking for really – are there special blocks I an get for free that I can put on my computer to stop her from checking out porn and other innapropriate sites (she figured out my password and snuck on last night, and it was all porn sites she was looking up) that is FREE?

And if you were in my shoes, what would you do? Am I wrong for refusing her father to see her? I told him he has to be out of rehab for a full year, attending AD meetings regularly and living in a stable home for a full year. BUT he also cannot spend nights with her even at that point until a psychiatric assessment is done.

Long story. My daughter’s father and I had never been together outside of my pregnancy. I had her full time until she was 10. while I was going through a nasty divorce from ex husband (after her father and her brother’s dad) – her dad whom I thought was a friend offered to take her more full time while I was going through the custody battle.

So she stayed with him. And she started to avoid me. Last time she came over for her visit, she ran away after I allowed her only an hour online. When I was taking a shower she ran off at 11:30 at night. I was frantic and calling the police, calling friends, calling her dad. Finally got in touch with her dad at 12:45. And he said he picked her up from a store two blocks away and figured that he shouldn’t have to call me. She refused to talk to me. He told me I was too strict (I caught her having cybercex online a few months ago and now restrict her usage).

Now. He refused to punish her for running off and said she was just being a typical teenager. Well. He left HER two nights later – stole his roommate’s car (my friend).

She called her aunt to pick her up at 2 in the morning when she went to go to his room and found he was gone.

My friend (his roommate) called me two days later and told me her car was found downtown in Crack Alley. Dad was arrested for theft of the vehicle, and in posession and under the influence of Crack Cocaine.

I recently found out that he’s a regular user. Well, he’s been allowing daughter to have friends sleep over (including boys), AND according to my friend and some of his family, been sneaking into her room at 4am in the morning in his underwear to sleep with her.

Police were phoned. I went to court and couldn’t get any custody going because I don’t know where he is. I went to the friends house to collect all of her belongings. I had her checked out at the Childrens Hospital, she denies any kind of sexual encounters, but outright refused a physical.

I came across her journal, and knew she was having SERIOUS issues (shes not even 13 yet) since being with her father. So I read it… I was shocked to find out she’s been having sex with her cousin and best friend (male and female respectively) and is worried she is pregnant. I also noticed a couple of weeks ago one of my packages of birth control pills had gone missing (i keep it in my bedside table)

When I had spoken to her dad a month back I told him I had worries she was being sexually active (he also admitted to catching her having cyber sex and figured there was nothing wrong with it) he told me it was all in my head and to stop being so strict. I kept insisting he has a talk with her.

Anyways I found out dad is and has been a crack addict for over 10 years (I was with him last 13 years ago) AND is HIV positive.

He phoned me after he ran off and apologised and expected to take her right away. I laughed at him and said he needs to get help for himself and to not worry about our daughter. I am taking her to counselling etc. He told me that she doesn’t want to be with me because I’m too strict (no boys in her room, limited time online, and following general rules like picking up after self, keeping room tidy etc). Well she has great relationship with her aunt, who is working with me on enforcing simple rules and chores. SHe’s the only one my daughter will run to – and she isn’t going to get away from it any longer.

When I told him I read her journal he FREAKED. I told him what I found, and he said that i had no right knowing that (including my daughter saying “if I’m pregnant, I’ll get rid of it without telling my mom”). She also talked about taking “pills” and “rainbow Parties” and drinking.

If I hadnt read her journal, I wouldn’t have known the serious trouble that she is in.

I feel kind of guilty that I read her journal, but I never would have known the problems she was having as she refused to talk to me. Am I truly wrong for reading it? I had a few people tell me that I can actually be charged for child abuse for reading her journal.

Anyways, advise I’m looking for really – are there special blocks I an get for free that I can put on my computer to stop her from checking out porn and other innapropriate sites (she figured out my password and snuck on last night, and it was all porn sites she was looking up) that is FREE?

And if you were in my shoes, what would you do? Am I wrong for refusing her father to see her? I told him he has to be out of rehab for a full year, attending AD meetings regularly and living in a stable home for a full year. BUT he also cannot spend nights with her even at that point until a psychiatric assessment is done.

Long story. My daughter’s father and I had never been together outside of my pregnancy. I had her full time until she was 10. while I was going through a nasty divorce from ex husband (after her father and her brother’s dad) – her dad whom I thought was a friend offered to take her more full time while I was going through the custody battle.

So she stayed with him. And she started to avoid me. Last time she came over for her visit, she ran away after I allowed her only an hour online. When I was taking a shower she ran off at 11:30 at night. I was frantic and calling the police, calling friends, calling her dad. Finally got in touch with her dad at 12:45. And he said he picked her up from a store two blocks away and figured that he shouldn’t have to call me. She refused to talk to me. He told me I was too strict (I caught her having cybercex online a few months ago and now restrict her usage).

Now. He refused to punish her for running off and said she was just being a typical teenager. Well. He left HER two nights later – stole his roommate’s car (my friend).

She called her aunt to pick her up at 2 in the morning when she went to go to his room and found he was gone.

My friend (his roommate) called me two days later and told me her car was found downtown in Crack Alley. Dad was arrested for theft of the vehicle, and in posession and under the influence of Crack Cocaine.

I recently found out that he’s a regular user. Well, he’s been allowing daughter to have friends sleep over (including boys), AND according to my friend and some of his family, been sneaking into her room at 4am in the morning in his underwear to sleep with her.

Police were phoned. I went to court and couldn’t get any custody going because I don’t know where he is. I went to the friends house to collect all of her belongings. I had her checked out at the Childrens Hospital, she denies any kind of sexual encounters, but outright refused a physical.

I came across her journal, and knew she was having SERIOUS issues (shes not even 13 yet) since being with her father. So I read it… I was shocked to find out she’s been having sex with her cousin and best friend (male and female respectively) and is worried she is pregnant. I also noticed a couple of weeks ago one of my packages of birth control pills had gone missing (i keep it in my bedside table)

When I had spoken to her dad a month back I told him I had worries she was being sexually active (he also admitted to catching her having cyber sex and figured there was nothing wrong with it) he told me it was all in my head and to stop being so strict. I kept insisting he has a talk with her.

Anyways I found out dad is and has been a crack addict for over 10 years (I was with him last 13 years ago) AND is HIV positive.

He phoned me after he ran off and apologised and expected to take her right away. I laughed at him and said he needs to get help for himself and to not worry about our daughter. I am taking her to counselling etc. He told me that she doesn’t want to be with me because I’m too strict (no boys in her room, limited time online, and following general rules like picking up after self, keeping room tidy etc). Well she has great relationship with her aunt, who is working with me on enforcing simple rules and chores. SHe’s the only one my daughter will run to – and she isn’t going to get away from it any longer.

When I told him I read her journal he FREAKED. I told him what I found, and he said that i had no right knowing that (including my daughter saying “if I’m pregnant, I’ll get rid of it without telling my mom”). She also talked about taking “pills” and “rainbow Parties” and drinking.

If I hadnt read her journal, I wouldn’t have known the serious trouble that she is in.

I feel kind of guilty that I read her journal, but I never would have known the problems she was having as she refused to talk to me. Am I truly wrong for reading it? I had a few people tell me that I can actually be charged for child abuse for reading her journal.

Anyways, advise I’m looking for really – are there special blocks I an get for free that I can put on my computer to stop her from checking out porn and other innapropriate sites (she figured out my password and snuck on last night, and it was all porn sites she was looking up) that is FREE?

And if you were in my shoes, what would you do? Am I wrong for refusing her father to see her? I told him he has to be out of rehab for a full year, attending AD meetings regularly and living in a stable home for a full year. BUT he also cannot spend nights with her even at that point until a psychiatric assessment is done.

A father passing by his son’s bedroom was astonished to see that his bed was nicely made and everything was picked up.

Then he saw an envelope, propped up prominently on the pillow that was addressed to “Dad.” With the worst premonition he opened the envelope with trembling hands and read the letter.

Dear Dad:

It is with great regret and sorrow that I’m writing you. I had to elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you. I have been finding real passion with Stacy and she is so nice. But I knew you would not approve of her because of all her piercings, tattoos, tight motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it’s not only the passion…Dad she’s pregnant. Stacy said that we will be very happy. She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children.

Stacy has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn’t really hurt anyone.We’ll be growing it for ourselves and trading it with the other people that live nearby for cocaine and ecstasy. In the meantime we will pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Stacy can get better. She deserves it. Don’t worry Dad. I’m 15 and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I’m sure that we will be back to visit so that you can get to know your grandchildren.

Love,

Your Son John

P.S. Dad, none of the above is true. I’m over at Tommy’s house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than the report card that’s in my center desk drawer.

I love you.

Call me when it’s safe to come home

I recently put my children’s father on child support in Ga. He missed his appointment at the Child Support office, so he was ordered to appear in court next month. Now he is threatening to file visitation rights. But honestly, I don’t trust him to be alone with my kids.

I know for a fact that he smokes marijuana, but there have also been a lot of close mutual friends that have approached me a warned me that he has been doing some other hard core drugs such as crack cocaine and prescription pills and it is rumored that he has done meth, especially since a good friend of his just went to jail for it.
Also, the girl that he lives with is an alcoholic and a schizophrenic. She has three children of her own, and I have known since her children were born (way before him and her) that she leaves her kids at home alone for hours on end, and drives them around with her while she is highly intoxicated. I mention her because I know their father well enough to know that he will leave them with her more than he will watch them if he is to get visitation, because when we were together he did the same thing with his other children.
He has one child that has come to live with him and her since his mother is on drugs and homeless. But I just don’t feel comfortable accepting my children being in that kind of situation. I know that he has been physically abusive with her, and they fight constantly.

Since my children were born, even when we lived together, he was never there and he has never bought them anything for birthdays, christmas or anything inbetween. He has never been a father to my children. So if anybody can help me, any advice, please answer!!!

A father passing by his son’s bedroom was astonished to see that his bed was
nicely made and everything was picked up.

Then he saw an envelope, propped up prominently on the pillow that was
addressed to “Dad.” With the worst premonition he opened the envelope with
trembling hands and read the letter.

Dear Dad:

It is with great regret and sorrow that I’m writing you. I had to elope with
my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you. I have
been finding real passion with Donna and she is so nice. But I knew you
would not approve of her because of all her piercings, tattoos, tight
motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it’s
not only the passion…Dad she’s pregnant. Donna said that we will be very
happy. She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the
whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children.

Donna has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn’t really hurt
anyone. We’ll be growing it for ourselves and trading it with the other
people that live nearby for cocaine and ecstasy. In the meantime we will
pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Donna can get better. She
deserves it. Don’t worry Dad. I’m 15 and I know how to take care of myself.

Someday I’m sure that we will be back to visit so that you can get to know
your grandchildren.

Love,

Your Son John

P.S. Dad, none of the above is true. I’m over at Tommy’s house. I just
wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than the report
card that’s in my center desk drawer.

I love you. Call me when it’s safe to come home.

A father passing by his son’s bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then he saw an envelope propped up prominantly on the center of the bed. It was addressed, “Dad”.

With the worst premonition, he opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands.

Dear Dad, It is with great sorrow that I am writing you. I had to elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with you and mom. I’ve been finding real passion with Joan and she is so nice – even with all her piercings, tattoos, and tight motor-cycle clothes.

But it is not only passion I have found dad; shes pregnant and Joan said we would be happy. Even though you don’t care for her, as she is so much older than I, she already owns a trailer in the woods and already has a stack of fire wood for the winter. She wants to have many more children with me and that is my dream too, now.

Joan taught me that marijuana doesn’t hurt anyone and we’ll be growing it and trading it with her friends for the cocaine and ecstacy we want.

In the meantime, we’ll pray that science finds a cure for AIDS so Joan can get better, she sure deserves it.

Don’t worry Dad. I am 15 years old now and can take care of myself. Someday I’m sure we will be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren.

Your son,
John

P.S. Dad none of the above is true. I’m over at the neighbor’s house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that’s in my desk center drawer. I love you!! Call when it is safe for me to come home.

I’m a 20 year old female. I was an only child, my father died when I was 10. Prior to my fathers death, I lived a middle class lifestyle with my father and he treated me like a princess and usually gave me what I wanted. (But we weren’t rich, so he was still frugal and set limits) He was very authoritarian in his approach to parenting, so I knew to never interrupt, curse, backtalk, etc. He died when I was 10 and my mother(who was a meth addict) was given custody of me. My mother was living in a motel and making drugs and was unemployed, and I moved in with her. She was in her own world usually, and I did most of the cleaning and cooking by myself. We went through numerous months of having no heat/a.c. because she couldn’t pay the bills. It ended finally when she accidentally set our house on fire, which is when family intervened to help with her addiction. My mom did become clean, but still abused marijuana, alcohol, and sometimes cocaine throughout my middle school and high school years. She was very passive towards me and I basically did what ever I wanted. We also did drugs together. I made bad grades and skipped school a lot. After barely graduating high school, I decided drugs were ruining my life. I stopped using drugs and alcohol and began working in retail. Later, I enrolled in community college which is where I’m at now. I am still clean off of drugs, but I have issues in school. I have attempted many courses but only completed 3, because I drop the courses or stop showing up. The classes I have completed though, I’ve made good grades in. A few people have told me that I am a difficult person sometimes because I seem to think i’m a princess and I want to do everything my own way. They think that this causes me to slack in school because I subconsiously think that I can do whatever I want.
Does this sound accurate? Do you think I have issues in school because I was an only child? Or because of the unhealthy relationship I had with my mother?
I need help because it’s really troubling me

Thanks to all!

ok, its a long story so bear with me.
my parents separated in 2001. im 17 now and my brother is 21. he’s bipolar but he wasn’t diagnosed until he was 19. so at an early age, he turned to drinking and drugs to cope with it when he didn’t understand it. anyway, he spent a long time on cocaine and even did it in front of me a few times. around that time, my mom started dating a guy named rui. i don’t know his last name or even what he looks like because i’ve never met him, and she’s been with him for over 5 years now.
a little after my brother started using drugs, he became really violent. he would curse and yell and hit people in my family. he hit me a few times too for trying to defend them. but of coarse no one did anything. every time i called the police, my grandfather would lie and tell them that everything was ok, because since my brother is the only boy in our family, he’s precious. now, sometimes my mom would be out on a date with this rui guy, and whenever my brother started getting violent, me and my sister would try to call her, but she would never pick up the phone, because she said that she doesn’t want her boyfriend to know how bad our family is. and this happened on several occasions. and we would keep telling her that she has to pick up the phone because we need her, and she would say that she would, but she never did.
anyway, when my brother turned 18, we kept trying to convince her to kick my brother out of the house, because 1. he had no job 2. he was a drug addict 3. every time he overdosed or cut himself or something like that, she was the one who had to pay for his hospital bills, and he never even appreciated it, and 4. we figured maybe this would wake him up and make him realize that he needs to get his act together if he’s going to survive.
but she didn’t. she said that that was her son and she couldn’t do that to him, even if he is violent and a drug user and refuses to get help. so after one last big brawl between me and my brother (my mom was on another date with rui for this one) i moved out of my moms house and went to live with my father. i told him everything, and he said that i could stay with him in his apartment, but there was nothing he could do about my brother. he said that it’s my mothers house, not his, and he can’t kick him out.

so anyway, about a year went by before i started talking to my brother again. he was drunk and high one night and apparently very upset because my grandmother was threatening to leave my grandfather. (complete bs, i know) so i let my brother into the apartment out of pity.
we talked for a while, and we layed down in my fathers bed. he was pretty drunk, because all of a sudden, i felt his hand start to creep down my pants. i jumped away and i guess when he realized what he did, he decided he was going to kill himself. i went through the entire apartment looking for anything that he can possibly hurt himself with. by this point he was collapsed in the hallway. i took all the knives and what have you, and locked myself into the bedroom and called for an ambulence. it took a while for them to get there (mind you my father works at nights) i didn’t call my mom, because i figured she was never gonna pick up anyway. and when i opened the door to check if my brother was ok, i found him locked in the bathroom. i used a knife to jimmy the lock and i found his head in the toilet as if to try and drown himself. i pulled him out and he vomited on himself. he couldn’t even stand anymore. when the police and ambulence came, i didn’t tell them about what my brother did to me. i knew he wouldn’t remember and i figured it would be best forgotten. that was a year ago. i never told anyone about this. and after all of this, i can’t help but feel resentment toward my mom. and i don’t know why. all this is true. please help
im not in high school anymore, im in college. my mom has been trying to get closer to me lately, but i can’t look at her sometimes. i know it’s not her fault with what happened and she doesn’t even know, but i don’t know how to feel sometimes. like i don’t know who to blame. i feel bad when she tries to talk to me and i can’t bring myself to talk to her too
i don’t hate her, btw. but i don’t know
i don’t know who to talk to or anything. i don’t want to tell anybody i know about it

Why Parents Drink

A father passing by his son’s bedroom was astonished to see that his bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then he saw an
Envelope, propped up prominently on the pillow that was addressed to ‘Dad.’

With the worst premonition he opened the envelope

with trembling hands and read the letter.

Dear Dad:

It is with great regret and sorrow that I’m writing you. I had to elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you.

I have been finding real passion with Stacy and she is so nice.

But I knew you would not approve of her because of all her piercing, tattoos, tight motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it’ s not only the passion…Dad she’s pregnant.

Stacy said that we will be very happy.

She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children.

Stacy has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn’t really hurt anyone.
We’ll be growing it for ourselves and trading it with the other people that live nearby for cocaine and ecstasy.

In the meantime we will pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so

Stacy can get better. She deserves it.

Don’t worry Dad. I’m 15 and I know how to take care of myself.

Someday I’m sure that we will be back to visit so that you can

get to know your grandchildren.

Love, Your Son John

PS. Dad, none of the above is true. I’m over at Tommy’s house.

I Just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than a Report card That’s in my center desk drawer.

I love you.

Call me when it’s safe to come home…

So, my father found my pot & bowl. He’s sometimes mildly violent when he gets angry, but I text-ed him while I was at work telling him I wanted to be civil about this and non-violent, else I wouldn’t come home. He agreed and was very chill about it. (I think he just has some minor anger issues)
Before I continue I’d like to share some background information on my father. He was a “pothead” in High school, grew, sold, and smoked daily. He said he couldn’t go a day without smoking a joint. He said he was ‘addicted’. He said that he knows it is addicting, and that it IS a gateway drug. He got into cocaine, K12, an heroin. He then just wanted to get higher and higher. He thinks I’ll do the same. Since I was born, 18 years ago, he has been sober of any mind altering substances. Christian, and an overall great father.
Back to the story.
I asked him if he’d let me present him with a factual presentation about marijuana and how it’s NOT addictive, and NOT a gateway drug. He just keeps denying me and saying that it is. He uses the line “I KNOW DANIEL, I’VE BEEN THERE” and gets all emotional. It just really aggravates me that I can’t make my own decision. I’ve done tons of research and I honestly would never do any other drug other than Marijuana, unless all natural and not harmful.
I’m fine not using for the year or so I plan on staying here, but I would still like an occasional recreational toke. A jump out of this world, into the peaceful land of the ents.
He’s not letting me use his car. Next time he finds pot, I’m getting kicked out. And I’m going to start being randomly drug tested. (He knows how to drug test, he’s been there)
Is there any older ents to give lend me some wisdom?
Thanks, Dan (:

So, my father found my pot & bowl. He’s sometimes mildly violent when he gets angry, but I text-ed him while I was at work telling him I wanted to be civil about this and non-violent, else I wouldn’t come home. He agreed and was very chill about it. (I think he just has some minor anger issues)
Before I continue I’d like to share some background information on my father. He was a “pothead” in High school, grew, sold, and smoked daily. He said he couldn’t go a day without smoking a joint. He said he was ‘addicted’. He said that he knows it is addicting, and that it IS a gateway drug. He got into cocaine, K12, an heroin. He then just wanted to get higher and higher. He thinks I’ll do the same. Since I was born, 18 years ago, he has been sober of any mind altering substances. Christian, and an overall great father.
Back to the story.
I asked him if he’d let me present him with a factual presentation about marijuana and how it’s NOT addictive, and NOT a gateway drug. He just keeps denying me and saying that it is. He uses the line “I KNOW DANIEL, I’VE BEEN THERE” and gets all emotional. It just really aggravates me that I can’t make my own decision. I’ve done tons of research and I honestly would never do any other drug other than Marijuana, unless all natural and not harmful.
I’m fine not using for the year or so I plan on staying here, but I would still like an occasional recreational toke. A jump out of this world, into the peaceful land of the ents.
He’s not letting me use his car. Next time he finds pot, I’m getting kicked out. And I’m going to start being randomly drug tested. (He knows how to drug test, he’s been there)
Is there any older ents to give lend me some wisdom?
Thanks, Dan (:

So, my father found my pot & bowl. He’s sometimes mildly violent when he gets angry, but I text-ed him while I was at work telling him I wanted to be civil about this and non-violent, else I wouldn’t come home. He agreed and was very chill about it. (I think he just has some minor anger issues)
Before I continue I’d like to share some background information on my father. He was a “pothead” in High school, grew, sold, and smoked daily. He said he couldn’t go a day without smoking a joint. He said he was ‘addicted’. He said that he knows it is addicting, and that it IS a gateway drug. He got into cocaine, K12, an heroin. He then just wanted to get higher and higher. He thinks I’ll do the same. Since I was born, 18 years ago, he has been sober of any mind altering substances. Christian, and an overall great father.
Back to the story.
I asked him if he’d let me present him with a factual presentation about marijuana and how it’s NOT addictive, and NOT a gateway drug. He just keeps denying me and saying that it is. He uses the line “I KNOW DANIEL, I’VE BEEN THERE” and gets all emotional. It just really aggravates me that I can’t make my own decision. I’ve done tons of research and I honestly would never do any other drug other than Marijuana, unless all natural and not harmful.
I’m fine not using for the year or so I plan on staying here, but I would still like an occasional recreational toke. A jump out of this world, into the peaceful land of the ents.
He’s not letting me use his car. Next time he finds pot, I’m getting kicked out. And I’m going to start being randomly drug tested. (He knows how to drug test, he’s been there)
Is there any older ents to give lend me some wisdom?
Thanks, Dan (:

in Johnny Cash’s song cocaine blues -the part that goes “I thought I was her daddy but she had five more” is it talking about paternity or sex? i say its talking about paternity because he thought he was the girls father but she had 5 more, so what do ya think, paternity or sex

My mom married my step dad in 1990,when she was pregnant with me and my twin brother.She didn’t know she was pregnant,till after she’d divorced our biological father.So us and our older brothers,who were toddlers were forced to call this white guy daddy.And my mom went on to have 4 more kids by him,3 boys and 1 girl.
My step dad had a very bad cocaine problem.He was a professional Computer engineer,but forced my mom to work two jobs and stole every quarter she got!My mom died of Cervical Cancer when me and my twin were almost 13.
My step dad and my lil brothers and sister didn’t even go to her funeral!When my mom wanted to see my lil sister and brothers.He gave her a huge dose of morphine and told her to just die already,because she was a sh*tty mother and he already had a mistress,who could be a real mom to HIS kids!
After the funeral.My oldest brother(16) and third brother(15) were kicked out of the house.They went to live with family friends.My oldest brother’s twin and fourth brother began taking care of our lil siblings like they were the daddy.While our step dad was on a month long coke binge.
He locked up our mom’s bedroom,so we can’t get any of her stuff.I really wanted the wedding band my father gave her,but he gave both wedding bands to my lil sister.The one he gave mom and the one our father gave mom.
Up until I moved out my step dad called my half breeds,who*es,sluts,Ni**ers,wet b*ac,and ba*******!He thought only his kids were beautiful,because they looked white.

My mom married my step dad in 1990,when she was pregnant with me and my twin brother.She didn’t know she was pregnant,till after she’d divorced our biological father.So us and our older brothers,who were toddlers were forced to call this white guy daddy.And my mom went on to have 4 more kids by him,3 boys and 1 girl.
My step dad had a very bad cocaine problem.He was a professional Computer engineer,but forced my mom to work two jobs and stole every quarter she got!My mom died of Cervical Cancer when me and my twin were almost 13.
My step dad and my lil brothers and sister didn’t even go to her funeral!When my mom wanted to see my lil sister and brothers.He gave her a huge dose of morphine and told her to just die already,because she was a sh*tty mother and he already had a mistress,who could be a real mom to HIS kids!
After the funeral.My oldest brother(16) and third brother(15) were kicked out of the house.They went to live with family friends.My oldest brother’s twin and fourth brother began taking care of our lil siblings like they were the daddy.While our step dad was on a month long coke binge.
He locked up our mom’s bedroom,so we can’t get any of her stuff.I really wanted the wedding band my father gave her,but he gave both wedding bands to my lil sister.The one he gave mom and the one our father gave mom.
Up until I moved out my step dad called my half breeds,who*es,sluts,Ni**ers,wet b*ac,and ba*******!He thought only his kids were beautiful,because they looked white.